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  • Last night, I finally sent out “Healing a Space,", a Lightplay about my neighborhood and some things I’ve noticed over three years living here. A highlight was finally getting to write about a monstrous house we always go by on our evening walks.

    It has three tiny dormer windows and then, next to them, somehow three roof hips in quick succession. For all the world it seems that three houses were teleported into the same space, their volumes overlapping in a non-Euclidian mess. We refer to this structure as either “those house” or “that houses.”

    → 10:38 AM, Jun 12
  • At last night’s opening for “L.A. All-Stars” at my favorite gallery, Space Ten, my brother got to take part in a performance piece that Chris Burden made in his student days.

    My brother had studied Burden’s work as an undergrad himself, so it was a total highlight, courtesy of Bob and Axel Wilhite.

    → 7:56 PM, Jun 10
  • After years of following Los Feliz Daycare on Twitter, I did a full double take this afternoon at Joy on York.

    → 7:51 PM, Jun 10
  • The concept that aspiring writers must “write every day” has always ground my gears, but I could never put my finger on why. Today I realized: it makes it sound like a chore outside of life, a new routine, fulfilled through will power. When for me the durable change is to weave writing through life.

    → 7:45 PM, Jun 10
  • Love this album cover, the title, and how it looks on YouTube.

    album cover for Hania Rani
On Giacometti

    The music isn’t half-bad, either. Ambient-influenced, classical-inflected, full of deep-voiced strings and the droning energy and circularity of focus-core.

    → 8:45 AM, Jun 7
  • The fine art of bathmaxing.

    → 9:13 PM, Jun 6
  • Pacific Design Center, viewed from West Hollywood Park during the WeHo Pride music festival, 2023.

    → 6:08 PM, Jun 6
  • Like a cherry tree, I too need over a thousand chilling hours before I can produce my great gift.

    → 7:39 AM, Jun 6
  • West Hollywood, June 2023

    → 9:23 PM, Jun 5
  • easemax (v.), to arrange one’s life and actions in the way that ensures the easiest path and the greatest comfort at all moments. Jimmy hit another level of easemaxing when his boss started letting him work entirely from bed, where pajama-clad he ate snacks his mom brought in on special tray.

    → 1:42 PM, Jun 1
  • West Hollywood, May 2023

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    → 9:51 AM, Jun 1
  • At some point we spoonerized oatmeal into moat eel. Now every time I eat the stuff I’m bothered by visions of a fishing rod poking through a crenel, a cauldron bubbling in a dingy castle kitchen, a fragrant bowl of fish gruel. What a time the chivalric era must have been.

    → 9:06 AM, Jun 1
  • It’s nice to wear a hat at the museum, to keep the light out of your eyes.

    → 8:46 PM, May 30
  • A Just Society Wouldn't Need a Sweet James

    When I first moved to LA, the ubiquitous billboards advertising a figure known as Sweet James intrigued me. Who was this Sweet James? Driving back from Highland Park in the late afternoon, we passed a billboard, then a bus, then a bus stop ad, all for Sweet James, all promising he would fix your situation, set things to rights. We decided that Sweet James must be a supernatural force that could be summoned by Angelenos whenever we found ourselves in a jam. Wish you hadn’t broken up with your girlfriend? Call Sweet James, and she’ll be outside your door in ten minutes, begging you back. Outgunned at the rumble with the opposing gang? Call Sweet James and watch the bodies fall. Piled up a whole bunch of dirty dishes and now feeling overwhelmed? Call Sweet James!

    For years we would laugh when we saw the billboards. We’d put on our deep movie announcer voices and say, “When all hope seems lost, what do they do? Call Sweet James.” Pity the city whose superheroes are all personal injury lawyers.

    It tipped from absurdity into offensiveness when the Sweet James ads began popping up in the dashboard of our car. We drive a Rav4 from 2018 with a funky infotainment system. It’s not advanced enough to actually include the album art of the song you’re playing over bluetooth, but instead it will pull a random picture of Johnny Cash from Toyota HQ and show that beside the track listings. (Most often, it defaults to hilarious stock images representing “Alt Rock” or “Indie” or whatever.) When the radio is on and picking up a digital signal, that same real estate displays an image provided by the radio station. For KCRW, our local NPR affiliate, it shows, you know, the KCRW logo. But for all the pop and rock stations, they just immediately sell that space for advertisements—from, you guessed it, Sweet James.

    The ad budget for this law firm! To try to get you to call them after your personal tragedy, they spend tens of millions of dollars every year. They have literally taken over the dashboard of my car. The bastards.

    Yesterday, I finally realized who is paying for these enormous ad budgets. It’s me! I pay it through outrageous car insurance costs, through high taxes for a government that pays out enormous settlements left and right, and through a higher cost of goods across the board, because part of the cost of doing business is getting sued. Being part of U.S. society in 2023 means absorbing the costs of this system, where injured parties sometimes get enormous payouts (and the law firms representing them get rich along the way).

    I hate it, but to be clear, I don’t really blame Sweet James or the other personal injury outfits. (Like Pirnia Law, with its derpy motto, “We didn’t meet by accident.”) In fact, I think that, in the context of a society with limited safety nets for the chronically injured, the chance of getting a big payout is a lifeline to so many people. For some people, I’m sure that Sweet James really is a sort of superhero.

    Instead, I blame a society that does so little to reduce harms, that seems uninterested in stopping accidents from happening (witness the plague of swollen, pedestrian-crushing vehicles clogging our streets and parking lots), and that doesn’t take care of people after the worst happens. We should be working to build a world where personal injury lawyers are a rare breed, infrequently called upon, and with limited ad budgets. We’re not, of course. In one of the absurdities of capitalism, working to reduce the frequency of injury is actually against the interests of the lawyers who represent injured people. They don’t mind in the least that I pay exorbitant auto premiums and higher taxes and higher costs across the board, to subsidize their industry. On some level, they’d be happy if I got injured, as long as I called them. Unsafe streets and workplaces and neighbors might be a tragedy, but to them they’re also a profit center.

    And so it falls to the rest of us to try to fix up our society enough to get our superhero out of the lawyering business entirely—so he can focus on what he’s truly meant to do. Because when L.A. finds itself with a dinner party in 45 minutes but still not having started cooking, who does it call? Sweet James!

    → 10:20 AM, May 28
  • In order to actually practice (v.) we must develop a practice (n.). Otherwise we’re just dabbling (v.).

    → 6:42 PM, May 27
  • An introvert, I crave the company of friends but can wear myself out on voices, stories, conversation.

    Nifty trick: in periods of heavy socializing, I stop listening to podcasts entirely.

    → 1:11 PM, May 27
  • “Mike DeWine,” screams the German villain, gesturing wildly at the grapes, the press, the fermentation vessels.

    → 12:41 PM, May 25
  • The siren call to write a scene where your protagonist makes spaghetti, listens to the end of a baseball game on the radio, eats solo, then listens to a jazz record and sips whiskey.

    Many a sloop has wrecked on the perilous shoals of Murakami.

    → 10:19 AM, May 25
  • Feeling affection for the 18-year-old who wrote this, justifying a briefly-updated blog.

    Affection—and continuity of self.

    → 10:51 PM, May 24
  • It’s a pity that the most noted war criminal of my lifetime took “own feet at other end of bathtub” as his preferred genre. I’d as soon not think about him during my special bathtime.

    → 10:05 PM, May 24
  • West Hollywood, May 2023.

    A wildly elaborate succulent.
    → 9:37 PM, May 24
  • The distance between exposing a photo and seeing it in full resolution has been narrowing for two centuries. Yet outside of elaborate studio setups, the most photographers today can do is preview on a small screen and zoom in.

    A potential “new thing” AR/VR headsets might do. For better/worse.

    → 9:35 PM, May 24
  • Thoughts on Jasperland, Micro.Blog, and Writerly Psychology

    I’ve been feeling reflective this week—so here are a few reflections on the experience of blogging in 2023, and on using Micro.blog as my main microblogging platform, which I’ve been doing since October. (This follows my thoughts on resuming sending out my email newsletter, Lightplay].)

    As a writer, I find it to be a great gift to have a gradient of formality in the places that I publish. At the high end of formality would be the book project I’m working on, or the 6,000-word history of Antioch University’s “Great Expansion," which I published as the cover story for this year’s Antioch Alumni Magazine (print circulation ~40,000). For these kinds of writing projects, the standard of writing has to be quite high, going through many drafts, multiple editors, proofreaders, etc. A bit less high-stakes might be a news story I write for my job, that gets posted online. But still, I’ve got to get it right—this kind of writing is my livelihood.

    Lower down the formality gradient is something like Lightplay, which I’ve found works best if the register is that of a friendly letter from a caring friend. I try to keep it easy, so I can write an edition over the course of a few hours in the evening, edit the next day, and get it out. And it’s great to write like this, not stressing too much, and putting it in front of readers just a few days later. It keeps one from getting too precious.

    But I can get psyched out by even something as low-stakes as a newsletter sent to a few hundred people. So: the blog. And even better: the microblog! (“Microblog” generally refers to a place where you post things under ~280 characters; the most notable platforms for this are Twitter and Mastodon.) Here’s the sort of thing I might think up and post here, all within a minute or two:

    A screenshot of a post reading "The only rocket ship I want is a rowboat full of arugula"

    My microblogging began last September. It was before the Muskrat finished buying Twitter, and I found myself off work on parental leave and with significant little chunks of free time as the baby slept. So I decided to set myself the goal of posting something—anything—on Twitter every day for three weeks. (For the deranged completist, here’s the archive of all my tweets.) At the end of my experiment I realized that I enjoyed posting, but I hated the “like” counter at the bottom of every tweet, which revealed that only three Twitter users liked me (wife, dad, friend in Maine). I’m pitiably susceptible to feeling like a loser, and the little popularity ticker is one of my biggest triggers. Despite my enjoyment of posting, Twitter made me feel bad.

    Around that time, I found out about Micro.blog, which is a service adjacent to Twitter but all its own thing. For $10/month, Micro.blog lets me:

    • host my blog on my own custom domain (jasper.land)
    • post via their app (which I use on iPhone) or via the excellent MarsEdit (which I use on my computer)
    • cross-post everything to Mastodon (I used to have it cross-post to Twitter; in the future I may have it cross-post to Bluesky)
    • distribute my posts via newsletter, if people sign up for that

    I can’t over-state how much better it feels to have my own little blog feed on Jasperland, versus having all my tweet-size posts hosted on an ad-funded platform that is liable to hostile takeover by a white nationalist billionaire. But even if Twitter had remained a public company, I still much prefer to own my own feed.

    It makes me much more likely to post. Partly this is just because of what it lacks: the like counter. But I also think I am drawn to the feeling that I’m building my own little cache of words and images and ideas, my own little edifice, here on Jasperland. Tweeting always felt like it was chasing engagement and likes and retweets. A post on jasper.land, even though relatively few people might end up seeing it, feels self-justifying, like writing in a journal.

    You can tell it’s been a hit, because I’ve posted here 112 times in the last 8 months. And I’m excited to keep posting, moving forward. Maybe in five years I’ll have a thousand posts on here—a little archive of what I was reading and thinking about.

    One tweak that I made this week is to adjust the newsletter settings within Micro.blog. Previously I set it up in the configuration where it would send subscribers the full text of all posts longer than 280 words. I thought that would be great—if I wrote a full-length blog post, a few people would actually read it. (I have three subscribers.)

    What ended up happening is: for the four months since I set it up that way, I don’t think I have posted a single blog post longer than 280 characters. Something about the knowledge that it would trigger an email getting sent out made posting a longer blog post feel strangely high-stakes. I don’t know exactly what I was worried about, but if I had to boil it down it would be: fear of wasting someone’s time. The whole point of the blog is to have a low-stakes place to post my writing, but the newsletter feature raised the stakes ever so slightly. It’s a weird part of my psychology as a writer: a small fear can block me, sometimes indefinitely.

    Recognition and acceptance are among the first steps to healing, so this week I changed the newsletter feature. Now it’s going to send an email to subscribers every Saturday, no matter what. That email will have all my microblogs along with links and previews to longer pieces. Søren Kierkegaard once said, “Do it or do not do it, you will regret both.” For me the freeing corollary is: post a longer blog post or do not post a longer blog post, your subscribers will receive an email on Saturday either way.

    We’ll see how that goes long-term. And of course, I don’t know how I’ll feel about Jasperland in six months or a few years. Maybe I’ll go back to microblogging directly on a platform. Maybe I’ll give up microblogging entirely. But I suspect I’ll remain here, posting in my own little realm, finally having found the right low-formality medium, happy as a clam.

    → 12:40 PM, May 23
  • Anne Trubek in Notes from a Small Press, on her abandoned career in academia:

    Eighteen years later, at a department meeting, she told me I had always been difficult. I had started off that way. Remember, she said, I demanded an office with a window as a condition of accepting the job, forcing her into the storage closet. Nothing had been said about this in the intervening years—during which another colleague had moved to an office out of the suite, because the dysfunction amongst the four of us was so high she could not bear it.

    As someone who myself spent years dreaming of becoming an academic—and didn’t—but did marry one—this whole piece captures so well the romance and claustrophobia and insane competition of that world. The best evocation of it I’ve encountered since the vivid (and weirdly similar) Vladimir by Julia May Jonas.

    → 11:20 AM, May 23
  • Re: 2015 travels in Tibet: The further I get from that trip, the more impressed I am by the photos from it, all taken on a standard-issue iPhone 5. I had so much fun with that camera.

    Travelogue5 8
    → 11:09 AM, May 23
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